on moping around

i have just finished checking almost everything. it's payday. it's friday the 13th. where art thou freddy? this is another boring day. i am sad about this work. i am hopeful about "lina." i have a very low energy. don't know why? i am angsty and moany and whiny. i had carrot cake from Mary Grace for lunch. possibly will update me later. we will be having ops tomorrow and it's freakin saturday. ugh. cannot wait to go home. 7 days to go...

socially relevant?

good things come to those who wait... or at least that's what i've been told... also patience is to the majority of the living, while eternity is the key to the non-living... but don't get me wrong... i have been patient (daming magre-react hahaha i know, not always!) & i know i am very tentative person. sabog-sabog mag-isip. that’s what i lack…focus…i must admit .just wonder exactly when my life will change for the better... i'm not saying that my life is horrid... cos i know it's not... because the life i live i can truly tell you that i have been blessed with a non-perfect but wonderful family that not many people can relate too... also limited but yet rare friends that i can trust... and a job that pays to the point and drive of barely getting by. but you know, sometimes life is not about who's right and wrong. life is only about becoming the creator of your own fulfillment by finding the hidden “light.” you do that each time you share with someone. That's the rule of the game. if someone wrongs you and you react, you aren't sharing. you might be right, but you also just hung up a curtain in the process. that's what nobody in this world seems to understand. they haven't figured that one out yet. and that's why the world abounds in sorrow and pain.

pucha.

araw ng kasarinlan

how would you commemorate this day? what do you thank for? do you think filipinos still value the independence we once fought for from the colonial rule? the bitch gloria does not! i am not really into the proclamation blah blah bullshit that you have to move the celebration to the nearest monday or friday? what is the fucking essence of that? come on! so now to celebrate…you think i will eat lumpia, isaw, balut? Hmmm good..but i won’t! hah!
so i got no work today cos gloria proclaimed that it’s a “holiday”…of cors i can’t stay in my place for the rest of the day…boredom will kill me!…buti na lang may dvd…thank god for the person who invented dvds and thank god to chinese peeps for the “piracy idea” hahaha…so i meet up with my good friends at serye~eastwood and yes, i ate filipino food. see…im not busy eaking out a basic living to think too much about the spirit of celebrating "independence”. i wonder what more can I do... fly a flag I guess?

on beer~ing and sleeping

i haven't slept that well since the weekend. beer run every night. now, for me sleeping is sacred: people at work may not believe this, but sleep is nearly as important to me as food. i may not get much of it during the week, but i ensure that i have at least one day in the weekend to catch up on sleep.

hopeful.

sis

madulom sa mahilig magpalupad sang malip-ot nga pakpak. pitasa ang oras para mabatyagan. para maba-id sang natural. antos anak antos. ubra lang sang ubra. normal lang ang makapuy. mag-andam sa bukog kag kristal nga buka. kabaskog magdala. nagakadlaw sa tunga sa linog. ginakaptan ang ulo samtang gapang-lakaton. ari kita diri subong. buas didto kita. kapyot. lakat ta.

in my mind

its funny how everything that i talk about is purely about non-sense not about relationships and life... i discuss them as if like those topics cannot leave this mind of mine... which is entirely correct, due to the fact that life and relationships only complete the emotions of what i and we call happiness... cos i know for a fact that no one would like to be alone... including me, im the type of guy who wants to be alone sometimes but not always... i hate the fact of even thinking of it... people who are alone are afraid of expressing themselves entirely (ouch!) it is as if they would like to hold on to something so dear... well me of not knowing... but would like to learn and ask questions of why...?
i bet you ask yourself why i talk about this specific topic... the reason? its simply because of the fact that i like to express myself through words... people that don’t know me, can have a pretty good idea of who i am through my expressions and ideas of my blogs... its not simply who i am... but what i can be... to you... to others... or to the world... its you that can take me for me, or leave it as is...and to honestly tell you the truth of why i like to express myself... is only because i get lonely... and i am hoping for one day i can express all these emotions and take them as they are & cherish me and what i have to give... for i will know what to do when that i one day comes for me to put all my time and effort into (hmmm sino ba?) that i can simply spend the rest of my life with... and to express the same feelings as ive expressed to (hmmm sino ba ulet?)... time is all we have... and love is all i can supply and express... im not rich & i dont drive a fancy car... i dont have a house (im just renting it) but i do know how to treat people with decency and respect... (sometimes hahaha) and that my friends is what separates me from others...
until then, thats all i have to say...
thanks for taking the time to read this shit...

fuck it

im just in the office and waiting for kate's ym message for interviews. got a forwarded text message from a friend about some "lovestuff". ugh...

so...to you what is love?

for me, love is a feeling that i simply cannot describe, a word that makes you speechless... a question of thought...? possibly... but you see, some use that word because they mean it... and some use it just to use it... and if you just use it without putting your full thought into it... that causes broken hearts and run down feelings, depression of loneliness...agree?hehehe

using that word you need to be positive that you can say it without holding back any feeling of regret... all you need to be focused on is the feeling of caring, which we call the true-ness of the reason of being with that one that makes you complete... you just have to use it to the extensive right of knowing that you will be loved by the one you chose to love... whether for future references of life... or just for any purpose at all (your purpose of knowing)... because we chose the train to ride in... but the relationship itself chooses the tracks of path... and we all know... it always takes two or three or four in a relationship hahahahaha kidding...for a fact i know we all want to be with the one that we want to love and cherish, and not to mention doing anything beyond the standards of normal... and of course we would want that in return... that same train of thought... those same feelings... & those same words... it's just a given... and the best thing in the world is not being able to love that one... but for that one to being able to love you... just that perfect way...

fuck it, marky....too mushy....eww!