lucky to be alive

my bestestfriend ian. he is working in singapore. missing his company na =(

mark: shet! kita mo nkita ko dude? hmm hmm!

ian: huo e! hmm hmm!

lol!

oh you did not know?

WTF?! literally, i'm not doing anything. my boss pay me to do this bwahahahaha thats it so far...text or call or send cake or whatever if u have any questions suggestions comeptetion superstition subscriptions. whatever and ever so there here this and that jazz rap tip tap paddy wack the love shack is a little old place where we can get together right now over me in a little toy shop buy a bag of balloons with the money we got set them free at last free at last thank GOD almighty im free at last Christmas i gave u my heart but the very next day by day by day by day. yes i am bored.

pins and needles

Pain doesn’t hurt when it’s all you’ve ever felt.

The time you walked away without saying goodbye felt like a thousand knives stabbing me. My heart bled. My cheeks were flooded with tears. The hand I used to hold has let go. The smile in your eyes fades like smoke in thin air. The warmth I used to feel changes like freezing cold. The room, which once filled with laughter, is now empty with solitude. The blue sky seems grey. The wind seems so cold like winter in summer. But hey, I know i'll be okay. Give me one week. I'll snap out of it.

It seems like pain is all I’ve ever felt. But, it doesn’t hurt no more. I’m used to it. My heart; it has been pin-cushioned with needles. Pain is now part of my system. There will always be pain every time I wear a fake smile. Pain is always there every time I speak of beautiful stories. And now that you’re gone, life will be like it was before. Melancholic. Nostalgic. Now that you’ve let go, my feet will be treading along the shorelines, alone. Solitary. Deserted. Abandoned.
Life has been beautiful and excruciating. I won’t shed a tear no more.

I’ve had enough. SNAP!

this is...

.......i have to say goodbye. no looking back. that's all i can say.

foamed

aaaaarrgh..ba't ngayon lg kita naisulat..just came from my holiday vacation. what a fuckin' rollercoaster ride.nakakapagod...physically. emotionally. pero wala na tayong magagawa. we really have to be strong para sa mga taong mahal natin. that's the reason siguro na nilagay tayo sa sitwasyon na parang di mo kaya pero dapat kayanin dahil kailangan nila tayo. baka yun yung role natin. as of now. pero minsan naitatanong ko....pano pag tayo naman ang na-drained? saan tayo kukuha? saan tayo sasampa? i just realized na hindi pala NIYA ibibigay yan pag hindi mo kaya. basta sige lang sa paglangoy. kahit walang salbabida. haay, balik office na naman ako. 50% malungkot - 50% masaya. malungkot kasi iiwan ko na naman ung family ko sa Iloilo. masaya dahil simula pa nun, gusto ko na ng independence. masaya kasi magkasama na naman kami at araw-araw ko na naman siyang makikita *sigh* by the way, i took this lomo- shot (Rob-Equitable Tower) when i was going to the office.

hate that i love you

When I see your smile Tears roll down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the oneI will never let you fall (let you fall)I'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it all (through it all) Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashingAnd stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the oneI will never let you fall (let you fall) I'll stand up with you foreverI'll be there for you through it all (through it all)Even if saving you sends me to heaven Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning grayI will never let you fall I'll stand up with you foreverI 'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven..

last request

its been awhile since nkita kita mahal kong blog...well, nothing much. by the way, i got may lomo camera na...wohoo! we went to hidalgo quiapo and bought my holga there...then, kurt got a fisheye2...awesome! now...don't think, just shoot! lol
after, libutin ang quiapo, we went back to ortigas. nagutom at kumain sa racks...haaay sarap!hehehe try nyo dun pag hinde pa kayo nkakain dun. then we went to galleria...we made tambay sa coffee bean...then, there was may first lomo shot hehehe a "mug shot" of my coffee. i'll post it pag na burn na sa cd.
we went to shangrila also, pinag-iisipan talaga ang susuotin sa christmas party(lol). we went to Zara, walang size aaargh...we went to Debenhams, Gas, A/X...aaarggh ang mahal. ok tama na! pagod na ko...wala na lang akong suot sa party hehehehe. just bought a simple vest from Topman. our theme was white christmas, so obviously, white party ala Diddy style. pro umuwe ako ng maaga, na bore ako...ni walang nangyayaring masaya..ang layo nya sa akin e.
anyways, nkakapagod physically & emotionally nangyari sa akin at sa family ko last month...but we're getting better...patungo na dun...i hope. AND Christmas is just around the corner so HAPPY HOLIDAYS GUYS! have fun and don't forget the true meaning of it which is giving and being unconditional.
i'll be spending my christmas in manila, (yup...2years na huhuhu) but its ok. im going home naman sa new year wohoo! pero ang mahal ng tiket.. punyeta! one way lang....limang libo?! pero atleast uuwe ako hehehe so this gonna be great...i hope.